Ladies before you freak out, when I say “Put Yourself on the Scale”, I by no means am referring to weighing yourself physically. I for one, do not touch scales, despite the fact that I’m always working out, I feel like weighing myself is some form or another, sabotage to my goals involving fitness. If the jeans start fitting a bit tighter, that’s my sign that changes need to be made. But when you take things like water weight, or certain times of the month, scales can hardly do a gal justice!
No what I’m talking about is something entirely different. How do you weigh yourself on an internal level? Meaning, how do find or see the weightiness of your value? You can breathe now. I’m constantly on this journey to know myself, to empower myself and to access as much freedom as I possibly can. In doing so, I know that establishing these key ingredients effect everything around me.
Years ago, I was introduced to the expression, “You can’t give away what you don’t have” and it has been a motto that has stuck with me. Meaning, unless I take the time and effort to make some radical deposits within myself and investing in clearly seeing myself for who I am, I can not give to society, nor anyone around me, all the true benefits of what I possess. I can’t love God, without loving myself. I can’t love my friends, without loving myself. I can’t love another man, without loving myself. It really starts with me and as easy as this may sound, the process to this isn’t always so cut and dry.
Often times, its ignored and distractions around me can often be my remedy to avoid the tough questions. “Do I love myself? Do I value myself? Do I know my worth? Do I truly understand the weightiness that I carry?” Don’t worry, I won’t ask you to ask these questions, we’ll just stick to me. Once again… you can breathe. But sometimes, when I’m afraid to have those questions answered for myself, I run. Here’s the stupid part, when I do take the time to listen for the answers to arise, its far better than what I could imagine.
Here’s the thing, when I Put Myself on the Scale, I’m always deeply pleased with the results. However distractions can often keep me away from experiencing my gold, distractions that I in the past, have far too easily played into. So I have to purposefully set time aside, tell the distractions “No” and walk on to my Internal Scale and ask “What is my weightiness?”. You see before we can answer the questions around us, or bring solutions to areas where we’re needed, we must first answer ourselves.
Recently a situation occurred where I was criticized for looking like a particular image, that I have carefully tried to avoid. A moment of exploration with fashion, immediately pegged me as some over the top flashy diva. Now while I know that gals love rocking this look, the glitz and the bling, it isn’t necessarily something I’m drawn to for myself. I love Audrey Hepburn, Victoria Beckham, Jackie O’, all who exemplify class and modesty. Call me a granny, but I love their sense of fashion, it’s what works for me. However, one particular evening I decided to really change it up, just because I felt like it.
After the comments that were said about me, came to my attention, I was pissed and naturally, hurt. I couldn’t seem to get them out of my head, they were like annoying flies that kept buzzing around me and despite how much I tried to slap them away, the pesty boogers just kept coming back. When that happens, that’s always my sign that something else is going on. So, I went after it, but not by going after the people who said the comments, but whatever garbage was lurking inside of me that kept the flies buzzing around.
The truth is, it hit a button and for me that was not okay. Needless to say, I took the time and investigated and once the answer surfaced, allowed some resolve to come into the situation occurring in my heart. There was a part of me, that felt devalued and it wasn’t okay to let myself stay there. I was worth pursuing and there was more of my weightiness in gold to be discovered. I allowed the false perception of me to surface, looked at it, decided that it was no longer okay to partner with it and accepted the truth that there was more beauty inside of me to be embraced.
What about you? (You didn’t really think I was going to keep telling you to breathe and let you stay there, did you?) When’s the last time you’ve done some mining on yourself and discovered hidden gold sitting in your treasure chest? To find out the depths of who you are, to see how much love is waiting to be experienced by you for you. You see others are just waiting for you to come out and come alive and in doing so, you set them free. But it has to start with you. Will you continue to partner with distractions, or will you push them aside and give yourself some worth and listen to what’s ticking on the inside of you?
This is one of my favorite quotes, “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” ~Marianne Williamson
It’s time to Put Yourself on the Scale, even if you must do it afraid.