It seems like the older I get the more my priorities become more and more refined. What used to make me happy and make me tick 5 years ago, no longer produce the same sort of emotions and thrills. Before going on tons of dates, meeting new men every weekend was an incredible adventure I look forward to time and time again. Now not so much.
Other things changed as well, goals, what I thought I wanted, what I fought for, have all turned different pages. I always said I wanted love, to be loved, but in the back of mind my main vision, my sole purpose was to be successful. A husband, a family were only nice accessories that I thought would accompany the package. That’s changed as well.
While I say that my priorities have changed, I’m convinced they’ve only become refined. Sometimes refined by fire that isn’t always so pleasant. Yes I’m a Leo, stubborn in nature and lessons have to be learned the hard way at times. I hope to grow out of that.
When I say my they’ve become refined, it’s because I believe that the heart knows what it wants, but we get side track in our heads, thinking we know what we want, what is best. We’re not really taught to listen to our hearts, the practicality of what it looks like can appear so foreign. But those moments, those glimpses where our hearts are able to speak to us loud and clearly is when clarity arises from the ashes.
I’ve always been a lover, I’ve believed in love since I was a child. I’ve always wanted it too. I can’t tell you how many times my heart have been broken and I’m scared to even consider how many hearts I may have broken. While I know this, the times I’ve been side tracked with “other priorities” exhausts me to think of or even entertain them.
We say or hear things like, “I’m building my career. I just don’t have time. Love is only in fairytales, it doesn’t really work like we hope it will in real life.” So we base our own truths and beliefs by the words around us and while we may convince ourselves that it must be true, our hearts never align with it. So the ache for more dwells within and we ponder upon it for a moment, then we get back to being busy.
Our heart is our biggest priority, well it should be. When we act on that and make it our priority, it speaks the truth to us. It reveals to us what we really want, what will truly satisfy our lives and thirst. For me, love is a major component. Careers come and go. Businesses succeed and die. Busy dating will always be there. True love, to be nurtured well, to be desired for who you are by another.. well that’s a priority I hope to always have.