..Unconditional Love. Now those are two words that come fully loaded. It’s almost as if they come disguised, like the word “Love” lets you think, “Oh this is easy”, but then you squeeze that word “Unconditional” in there and things begin to change. Still even “Unconditional” comes across so harmless, but the truth is, this word means a whole lot of a whole lot!
The word “Unconditional” means: not conditional or not limited. So when you put it in front of words like oh let’s say shopping… “Not Limited Shopping”, or perhaps “Not Limited Kissing” or anything grandiose like that, this words seems Amazing, Fantastic, the Best! However, when you put it in front of the word Love, it begins to take on a whole new meaning.
“Not Limited Love”….whoa…hold up a minute! Are you kidding me? Ah yes, see this is where I still have much to learn. Because while I’m a huge fan of love and I mean huge, when you put me in a situation where someone pisses me off, well love seems to vanish and the Unconditional part, well you can just throw that out the window.
I have yet to learn tolerance nor understanding for slow or idiotic drivers. In fact, I can almost assure you that if one gets in front of me or in my way, I can assure you they will be cussed out by yours truly. I just don’t have it in me, yet..mind you, to smile and wave these people off. I mean I’ll give them a wave, but there’s typically just one finger in the air when I’m doing it. So you can imagine where this whole Unconditional Love thing doesn’t even cross my mind in these situations.
Only, I wish this was my only area where I struggle in this department. Coming from a part Latina background, you can imagine that the feisty side has definitely played its part in my life and I take full responsibility for it. So when I’m in a situation where someone has really pissed me off, lets just come to agree to leave it in with the terms that things don’t get too pretty! Now while this may seem a bit funny to some degree, in relationships, its a disaster.
Yelling, screaming and throwing fits, doesn’t always do a whole lot for my heart or the other person involved. Especially if the other person has hurt me and my feelings. Sometimes I just want to crush them! And then I think of those two words… “Unconditional Love”. I either have to take a deep breath, when these words come to mind, or just find the strength to walk away. I usually fail to do both and the person on the other end has their lunch handed to them.
Needless to say, I’m still a work in progress and that’s why I will always be in school and going to class in this department of love. Thank you Unconditional Love for being the steadfast teacher and constant reminder that I still haven’t arrived and have a long way to go!