Have you ever felt like you were on the verge of transition, like something in your life was about to shift, yet you weren’t entirely sure what it was, or what it would look like? So much so that you can actually feel the anticipation of it and you find yourself looking for it. Looking around corners, anticipating phone calls and just waiting, hoping, that at some point it will jump out in front of your face screaming “I’m here!”
So you wait, you feel the beating of your heart as your heart senses that something is up, jumping up and down, knowing that at any moment, things could change. On the look out you remain and then you find that a week passes. You scratch your head wondering, “What the heck happened”? “Where’d that transition go?” “Perhaps its just a matter of time?” you tell yourself, so you keep holding on, letting the hope live.
Yet, the weeks somehow manage to turn into months and at this point you’re no longer questioning timing, but now questioning your sanity. “Okay did I just make this up, did my heart deceive me, or is my mind just playing tricks on me?” What once seemed like a clear picture, meaning the feeling of excitement and anticipation, then fades into a blurry delusion. You find yourself a bit more discouraged, not as light hearted and feeling out of sorts.
Transition can often times have a funny face with many angles. Meaning at one point, transition can bring clarity, hope, peace and then, as time progresses, it then can turn into the angle of confusion, disheartened hope and restlessness. When it first speaks, you want to run and shout it off the top of the mountains, tell all of your friends and hold a victory parade. However, when it lingers, you can find yourself hiding in your bedroom, checking out of life with mindless movies and running to those same friends asking them to hold up five fingers, just to make sure your sane enough to count.
So what do you do in transition? You wait, you continue to look and watch for the signs. When hope speaks, embrace it, rejoice with it and be very grateful with it. When disappointment arises, be courageous to cry in the moment, call a faithful friend to encourage you and remember to find your two feet, because there’s still the dance of life to be lived. But whatever you do, allow your heart to remind you of the promises and know that you’re not alone, the gift of the transition is on its way and when it finally arrives….It Will be Glorious!