If I said “Life is interesting” would you find that statement to be a shocker? Well it really is and sometimes you just never know which direction it will turn and if you’re not used to turns, this thing we call life can really throw you for a loop.
I rarely talk about current situations in my life, even if I’m writing about a topic that I would be in the moment walking out, I won’t refer to myself personally or my situation. It’s usually to protect the person or persons involved and to show them respect. So what I’m about to share today is very rare, as it is current and wouldn’t share it if it didn’t show the person involved in a beautiful light.
Yesterday I did something that was quite odd, I sent my ex-boyfriend a “Congratulations” card as he will be getting married this weekend. Weird right? I have to admit that when I first heard he was getting married I was a bit shocked, we had lost contact for a bit otherwise I’m sure I would’ve heard it directly from him. After hearing about it, I ended up speaking with my ex and he shared with me how they met and that they would be wedding very soon.
To hear the calm in his voice made me very happy inside. You can’t love someone truly and then not want them to be happy. I found it very easy to share in his delight and felt comforted that this special person had met another that had impacted him so.
The part that made it so weird was that the attachment he and I had shared was deep. We were together for over a year and a half, I had moved to England for him and we discussed marriage and life together. When we ended things it felt like the end of the world. I thought I would never fall out of love with this man. I mourned our relationship for over a year and just couldn’t seem to let go.
But as you guess with time, the feelings left. Love had found its way in my heart again and while I didn’t forget the ex, the feelings that were so deep within had subsided. I still treasure him as a dear friend, but the emotions of intimate love had left me. I thought they never would leave me, but they did. So much so that I could truly wish him happiness as I filled out his card and mailed it off to England. Across the pond my well wishes went.
You just never know how life will work out. The point is it will work out, we may not always know how or when, but it does. Our old song “The Scientist” doesn’t upset me anymore when Pandora randomly decides to play it. I don’t wail up with sadness when I see a Union Jack flag and I don’t feel the pit of my stomach sink when I hear a British accent. Instead I think back on my fond memories of it all and the fact that in the end, I still have my friend and hopefully a new one as he marries his beauty this weekend.
Across the Pond my wishes go, but my heart remains here with me. Oh the journey of this thing we call life.